______________________________________________________________________________ Have you even been in love?
Horrible, isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable.
It opens your chest and it opens your heart and it means someone can get inside you and mess you up.
You build up all these defenses. You build up this whole armor, for years, so nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...
You give them a piece of you.
They don't ask for it.
They do something dumb one day like kiss you, or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore.
Love takes hostages. It gets inside you.
It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so a simple phrase like "maybe we should just be friends", "Go away" or "you're irritating" turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart.
It hurts.
Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind.
It's a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain.
I hate love.

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Last post b4 exams...omg scary sia.
mid year exams (MYE) so scary...so much pressure laiddat.
it seems like the current world revolves around the MYEs.
okaaaaaaaaaay....im going to talk about less depressing things.
such as my journey with wenji and allison and zhiming ard lot 1 ((:
and er, more minor things like minhui's fall. half fall.
WOOOOOO, last monday i went lot 1 with zhiming and allison to meet wenji.
b4 that, zhiming got maths remedial, so i stayed back with him.
the remedial is finish early go early, then he finished in 20 mins cause his sis teach him everything ystd nite liao lol.
then we met up with allison.
she was with someone.
DRATER1? =O
maybe.
then we took bus..but her fren(?) was taking mrt...so we split ways.
i got drunk on green tea O_O
soon after entering lot 1, we lost wenji and allison.
THAT was fast.
we combed the whole shopping centre...but still cant find them wur.
then ltr by chance we caught them coming up the escalator.
ZHIMING!!!! WHY U DUN DARE TO SHOOT TEH PEARLS AT THEM?!
and...zhiming gtg liao...so we took lrt with him to his home - fajar - then make one big round back to CCK.
the LRT voice say "south view" like "f*** you" lmao xD
andd........the LRT door was spoilt.
can pull it open lol!
zhiming tried once, then allison did it.
omg allison open until the gap so wide then she close.
scaaaaaaaaaaaaary.
ltr drop out lol xD
after that we went home.
on 243 me and wenji saw wenxuan, kialuck and MINGDA.
MINGDA U ROCKS.
talk about lucky x)
and then about minhui's half fall.
i think it was the day b4 ystd b4 assembly.
she was being chased ard by emilie...then when she ran near my place she tripped on something and was sent sprawling forward...but she regained HALF her balance and managed not to fall.
but didnt manage to avoid knocking into the whiteboard.
okay the first point here is that i DIDNT trip her.
the other point here is that i DIDNT trip her.
got the hint?
agnes walked up to me and gave me a(nother useless, painless) hit on the back.
she accused me of tripping minhui.
hello? you stupid, blind or mute?
stupid, cannot think properly and ask me 1st ar?
blind, cannot see that i didnt trip her ar?
mute, cannot ask me whether it was me anot ar?
minhui wasnt hurt, so...i guess nothing really sparked up.
but its the small things that get me pissed.
and, i dont care if you're reading this, but i don't like it when you start pushing people around, kian guan.
you like to get so physical rite?
go get physical with a dairy cow lah.
one more thing...
I HATE people calling me to get lost.
Pauk the people who do.
bye kids...until the end of the exams.

oh yes, i changed the song to I Just Wanna Live by Good Charlotte.
lyrics too.

Disgust vandalises my expressions when i look at the weak excuse of an obstacle you present me with.


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