______________________________________________________________________________ Have you even been in love?
Horrible, isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable.
It opens your chest and it opens your heart and it means someone can get inside you and mess you up.
You build up all these defenses. You build up this whole armor, for years, so nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...
You give them a piece of you.
They don't ask for it.
They do something dumb one day like kiss you, or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore.
Love takes hostages. It gets inside you.
It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so a simple phrase like "maybe we should just be friends", "Go away" or "you're irritating" turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart.
It hurts.
Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind.
It's a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain.
I hate love.

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Last post b4 exams...omg scary sia.
mid year exams (MYE) so scary...so much pressure laiddat.
it seems like the current world revolves around the MYEs.
okaaaaaaaaaay....im going to talk about less depressing things.
such as my journey with wenji and allison and zhiming ard lot 1 ((:
and er, more minor things like minhui's fall. half fall.
WOOOOOO, last monday i went lot 1 with zhiming and allison to meet wenji.
b4 that, zhiming got maths remedial, so i stayed back with him.
the remedial is finish early go early, then he finished in 20 mins cause his sis teach him everything ystd nite liao lol.
then we met up with allison.
she was with someone.
DRATER1? =O
maybe.
then we took bus..but her fren(?) was taking mrt...so we split ways.
i got drunk on green tea O_O
soon after entering lot 1, we lost wenji and allison.
THAT was fast.
we combed the whole shopping centre...but still cant find them wur.
then ltr by chance we caught them coming up the escalator.
ZHIMING!!!! WHY U DUN DARE TO SHOOT TEH PEARLS AT THEM?!
and...zhiming gtg liao...so we took lrt with him to his home - fajar - then make one big round back to CCK.
the LRT voice say "south view" like "f*** you" lmao xD
andd........the LRT door was spoilt.
can pull it open lol!
zhiming tried once, then allison did it.
omg allison open until the gap so wide then she close.
scaaaaaaaaaaaaary.
ltr drop out lol xD
after that we went home.
on 243 me and wenji saw wenxuan, kialuck and MINGDA.
MINGDA U ROCKS.
talk about lucky x)
and then about minhui's half fall.
i think it was the day b4 ystd b4 assembly.
she was being chased ard by emilie...then when she ran near my place she tripped on something and was sent sprawling forward...but she regained HALF her balance and managed not to fall.
but didnt manage to avoid knocking into the whiteboard.
okay the first point here is that i DIDNT trip her.
the other point here is that i DIDNT trip her.
got the hint?
agnes walked up to me and gave me a(nother useless, painless) hit on the back.
she accused me of tripping minhui.
hello? you stupid, blind or mute?
stupid, cannot think properly and ask me 1st ar?
blind, cannot see that i didnt trip her ar?
mute, cannot ask me whether it was me anot ar?
minhui wasnt hurt, so...i guess nothing really sparked up.
but its the small things that get me pissed.
and, i dont care if you're reading this, but i don't like it when you start pushing people around, kian guan.
you like to get so physical rite?
go get physical with a dairy cow lah.
one more thing...
I HATE people calling me to get lost.
Pauk the people who do.
bye kids...until the end of the exams.

oh yes, i changed the song to I Just Wanna Live by Good Charlotte.
lyrics too.

Disgust vandalises my expressions when i look at the weak excuse of an obstacle you present me with.


Current Singapore Time : 4.28p.m

Nowatimes only weekends post...then also dun feel like posting. so ma faaan.
have you ever encountered people who are soo stupid that...whoa.
its like :
*begin scenario*
you say something. before you get to explain yourself, you're pummelled.
*pummelled = kena bash, btw*
and they say all sorts of things about you.
insult you, etc.
then when you get back at them, they think you're prejudiced against them.
*prejudiced = like purposely dun like someone/something, btw*
then they get all emo.
they go :
"why this person laiddat O_O
what wrong i do to that person O_O"
*end scenario*
PAUK!
i dunno if you encounter these kind of people before la, but if you did, dont you agree that they just make life harder to live?
useless emo kids!
would be easier if teachers didn't seem to ignore us so much -.-
no, im not prompting a "student reachout programme".

lets drop it.

A L L I S O N *finally* CREATED A BLOG! ^^
a'course, i linked her.
linked tsingmin -
DONT LIKE HER.
- and relinked minhui...she recreated her blog >_>
exams coming!
i dont think anyone is really prepared.
i replaced "its not over" with "harder to breathe" by maroon 5.
i hope you like it...most of us feel that our personal space, time and thinking are being compressed.
as such, its getting harder and harder to breather =X
Oh yes, if you read the lyrics,
learn that i have everything under control...even when you think you've got it alll wrapped up.
Anyone watched scream 1/2/3?
the villain is GHOSTFACE, whose picture is up there =D
I LOVE IT ^_^


Things you never were meant to know about now LIVE YOUR LIFE.


Current Singapore Time : 5.15 p.m (edited 5.37 p.m)

Woah got sore throat today...
Don't know why.
started ystd afternoon.
then got so bad, swallow saliva oso pain.
drink water oso pain.
duno for wad reason eat fud wont pain.
HENG >_>
then got headache...very pain....very dizzy....
i suddenly feel very childish.
like when i was in p6.
omg 6-2 O_O
i miss 6-2'06 >________<
changed the song..if you havent noticed.
lyrics oso.
not much else to post...time constraints...
may post more after exams...


Meet WC'06! he's loud! he's irritating! he's vulgar! he's in sec school!

Current Singapore Time: 5.02 p.m

just a short post...post for nothing. now my father wanna ban com. KAO SIA.
i think tml or sat i will be posting the day's events...but today, i wanna talk about racism.
racism sucks!
to all you racists out there, you suck!
your mother is a cow, and your father is a bitch!
u heard me right.
a bitch.
anyone who disagrees can approach me. im ready to own you in a "the arena"-styled debate.
racists are chicken droppings.
dog saliva.
cow teeth.
squirrel nuts.
racists are people COCKROACHES LOOK DOWN UPON.
dickheads.


Current Singapore Time : 7.22 p.m

I changed the song to I Don't Love You by My Chemical Romance....
The same band that brought you The Black Parade.
Oh yes, updated the lyrics too.
Short post...rushing to sleep.
Good Night.



Current Singapore Time : 11.56 p.m.

Wah, that day watch mtv then found so many nice songs.
LOL.
updated my ipod.........
....and handphone!
that day napfa so tiring leh. got 5th between 1E5 and 1N1 :))
got 2nd in class =P
wenkiat got 1st :)
slow and steady win the race hor? lol!
wah then today cross country hor....is a very bad phenomenom.
i wanted to run and get high...
...but i decided to walk/run with shi han =P
friends are more important than prizes...
stupid tag only. worth how much?
funny leh, the cross country 4.8km like shorter than napfa leh. feels shorter.
must be because is only one round :))
LOL then mr yoong wore the shirt his ex-class gave him!
the one which spelled his name wrong!
roflmfao!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
after that went jurong point.
supposed go with sinyee,agnes,joshua,zhiming,boonlin,susanti,xuanen,pris,minhui,tsingmin and daryl one.
then weiheng's mum gave them a lift. >_<
me and ZM walk lor...and take public transport.
MRT.
then for lunch...we split into 4 groups.
sinyee and boonlin ate at Mcdonald's. Ronald macdonald ate your burgers >:)
susanti, xuanen and tsingmin ate pizza hut. Wah lao eh.
agnes, minhui, pris, joshua and daryl super save money! go kopitiam! lol.
me and ZM ate loooooooong john silver :D:D:D:D
then after that was the fun part. we were going to floravale to play billard. then minhui decided not to go =\
it dont matter =P
we had fun...played billard, then basketball, then joshua got his skates out.... everyone except for me tried them on. awwwwwwwwww. i duno how to skate ma =X
then joshua gtg back home for tuition. sad.
but coincidentally, that's when the fun began.
we went back to billard rm, and ZM taught the girls how to play billard.
then we told ghost stories....and i put flowers in my hair.
ROFLMFAO.
that was sooooooooo fun.
then they all gtg le....ZM need go for qing ming at 2a.m....sleep well in the afternoon =P
ending off.............
CALL ME WHEN YOU'RE SOBER.


Current Singapore Time : 7.19 p.m(05-04-07)

Today.....indescribable. *spelling?*
first half of the day nth happened la...
then after recess i started thinking abt alot of things.
alot, alot.
then become very stressed.
+ the back of my head suddenly like...SUPER PAIN SIA.
then prof cheng take my lighter dunwan give back. By itself its nth la. I can tahan one.
then because ms lyn go poke joshua in the stomach for nothing then joshua start insulting her.
with me >_<...by itself oso can tahan one.
then duno why suddenly explode.
i think its all these + together.
AND THE ART TEACHER VERY QIAN BIAN. WAH LAO EH.
Sorry everyone T_T
seriously T_T
then CCA...sian as usual.
after that...waiting for my mum to pick me up that time saw weiheng...and william No.2.
saw the band ppls marching oso.
lmao spongebob squarepants xD
wah tml nid stay back for lit...sian.
i keep forgetting what i wanna blog.
aaah >_<
ppl....sorry for losing my temper today hor....Current Singapore Time: 9.12 p.m
Tag if you forgive me =X
JK.
p.s May 4 spiderman3 coming out...anyone wanna watch?

Current Singapore Time: 9.12 p.m

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